where the hell have i been?

to tell you the truth, i've been a lot of places.

for one, i've been at the gym a WHOLE lot. the cutest boy is there when i am now. and at the laundromat when i go on sundays. and suspiciously walking his (VERY CUTE) dog on my corner when i'm on my way to work. go figure :p.

for two, i've actually been doing my work? i've realized that the fact that i'm quitting in two months means that if i don't want to fuck the over whoever comes after me, i should wrap up all of my loose ends.

for three, i've actually been cooking. like breakfast, lunch and dinner, 7 days a week (and even dessert sometimes. michelle's blondie recipe, halved, makes perfect dessert for two with some left over for snacks for a few days, if you're interested). it has been a minute since i went out to eat, and my bank account has quite a bit to show for it :).

for four, my extracurricular life has gotten busier, with a new project on deck for the summer. again, social justice related, but this time with a focus on mainstream media. fun, but SO MUCH WORK.

for five, my brother graduated from grad school this weekend and will be attending georgetown law this fall! i went home to vegas to celebrate with him and the fam. jon is a nice boy, or an "IBM" as sanaa lathan might say :) (yes, i finally watched something new and i have yet to rinse the bad taste out of my mouth).

and don't worry, my google reader hasn't been getting any more love than flying solo has, so i'm behind all over the place. i will be back...

barack the vote

i'm up to go to the gym. yes, i know it's 5 a.m., but i had to get up and erase some drunken posts (appletinis are $5 until 9 on weekdays at moca, AND they have the best chicken tenders EVER) about obama and my ex and haters and cake (wtf, right?!) from last night. god, i'm a weirdo sometimes.

anyway, i went to a debate-watching party last night and i left the party, fell asleep, and woke up this morning feeling really pessimistic. i don't know what the root of my pessimism is, so i'm going to try to figure it out here.

things i know:

• i love barack obama. i like his presence, i like his position papers on his website (well enough), i like his wife (and want to be her one day).
• i trust michelle more than i trust barry. i think this comes from my general distrust of men? and i think it's weird that it carries over into politics. but then the personal is political, right?
• i don't trust america. i don't trust this nation to elect the right candidate for the right reasons.
• i don't trust politicians. i feel that there is always spin, and i hate spin. i like straight talk. i am pretty straightforward in my life, which sometimes doesn't serve me too well, and i think that's why i like michelle. she seems to be about straight talk, even when people don't want to hear what she has to say.
• i know that my viewpoints are way too far left to be represented by an "electable" candidate in this country.

all that being said, why can't i let go of this negativity? maybe i just want more, like kameelah does. or maybe i wish i could have real hope. i dunno. off to the gym to try to shake it off.


random side note: why did i see one of lisa turtle's old outfits at H&M on wednesday? crazy!

sad face :(

in the midst of overhauling the bloggo tonight, lost my blogroll. and of course i can't remember everything that was there. so if your blog has gone missing, it's nothing personal! i am just inept.

smooches!