and i am, again, asking you to pray if that's a practice you keep.
this week has been a bit catastrophic, and at press time both my mother and my roommate are in the hospital. my mother's shattered knee is nothing to sneeze at, and i appreciate any prayers you will offer up for her expedited recovery, but i'm looking more for prayer for my roommate.
she's on a respirator. again. and has been in the hospital since tuesday after having an allergic reaction to a pear. i'm concerned about her. there are tears in my eyes as i type this.
a few words of blessing would be sufficient. her name's melissa, if you think that will help your god locate her spirit.
thanks. it's hot out there, no?
Showing posts with label sadness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sadness. Show all posts
Friday, June 27, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
there goes the freaking neighborhood
a friend called from 126th and 5th the other day to tell me that nubian heritage (boma) was closing down. the doors were open and shit was being moved out, and there were no signs on the windows. i was devastated. big fat sad face.
i was going to write a whole post about the importance boma has had in my life here in new york, how my friend dave's face fell when i told him the news, how i just had a whole conversation with a neighbor the other day about the fabulousness of the business and the owners, and then i found this post over at uptown flavor. they aren't gone for good, they're just moving! that's the good news. the bad news is that the current space is being replaced by an applebees? boo.
there goes the neighborhood.
i was going to write a whole post about the importance boma has had in my life here in new york, how my friend dave's face fell when i told him the news, how i just had a whole conversation with a neighbor the other day about the fabulousness of the business and the owners, and then i found this post over at uptown flavor. they aren't gone for good, they're just moving! that's the good news. the bad news is that the current space is being replaced by an applebees? boo.
there goes the neighborhood.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
"caving" to obama
i want to be able to say that i don't see any of kimberley's critiques in myself. i want to say that i always feel 100% about my support of barack obama. but that's not true. kimberly's article, reposted after the jump from the black agenda report, speaks directly to me. i caved. i did. i have always known that i didn't really feel that barack was on my side of the fence, but i gave in because i felt i didn't have a ton of other options. read the article. she has a great point about the lack of any truly palpable progressive movement in this country at the current moment, and our seeming disinterest in creating one.
yes we can?
Freedom Rider: Progressives Cave to Obama
by BAR editor and senior columnist Margaret Kimberley
"There is no movement left to speak up or fight back."
FRobamaSpeeching The progressive movement is on its death bed, in critical condition for many reasons. Activists are demoralized after George W. Bush cheated his way into office, committed crimes against humanity, and subverted the constitution without punishment or even serious risk of political damage. Eight years of evil doing have taken their toll on activists' willingness to take action.
The Democrats are not blameless. The prospect of a Hillary Clinton nomination was another slap in the face to the most loyal Democratic voters. The Yale educated lawyer claimed she didn't know the Authorization for Use of Military Force Against Iraq was just what it said. The sorry excuses went on forever and the disgust only grew. Her vaunted inevitability silenced Democrats, who prepared to hold their noses and support the lesser of two evils.
The prospect of more humiliation from yet another Clinton put restless Democrats in the mood to look for other options. Barrack Obama scored points because he expressed opposition to invading Iraq back in 2003 when the crime was first committed. It doesn't seem to matter that as a United States Senator his votes on Iraq are the same as Hillary Clinton's. It doesn't matter that he once opposed establishing a deadline for withdrawal. It doesn't matter that he parrots the words of Republicans when he speaks of "the excesses of the 60s and 70s." None of what he says matters, because speaking up would mean fighting back, and there is no movement left to do that.
"MoveOn never bothered to make demands of Obama."
The end of movement politics has infected nearly everyone, like a mysterious illness in a science fiction film. If a movement still existed, MoveOn would not have made an Obama endorsement via popularity contest. They never bothered to make demands of him, to ask questions before giving him their support. Their endorsement is worthless because it gives Obama cover and asks nothing in return.
MoveOn spreads the conventional wisdom that super delegates are more likely to be pro-Clinton and are willing to subvert the popular will on her behalf. They have even circulated a petition to prevent super delegates from choosing the nominee. What MoveOn doesn't say is that both Clinton and Obama have used their political action committees to make contributions to super delegate campaign funds. They also fail to mention that Obama leads in making these contributions.
His PAC has given $698,200 to super delegates. Hillary Clinton has made $205,500 in contributions to super delegate coffers. In other words, Obama is more adept at buying votes than Clinton. "Yes we can" indeed.
"Obama is more adept at buying super delegate votes than Clinton."
MoveOn is not alone. It is incomprehensible that The Nation magazine endorsed Obama after making the following statement. "This magazine has been critical of the senator from Illinois for his closeness to Wall Street; his unwillingness to lay out an ambitious progressive agenda on healthcare, housing and other domestic policy issues; and for post-partisan rhetoric that seems to ignore the manifest failure of conservatism over these past seven years."
If The Nation has so many qualms about Obama, why endorse him at all? The editors could have simply made a statement of non-support for Obama or Clinton. The sad plight of progressives is all too obvious. "While his rhetoric about ‘unity' can be troubling, it also embodies a savvy strategy to redefine the center of American politics and build a coalition by reaching out to independent and Republican voters disgruntled and disgusted with what the Bush era has wrought." The Nation should explain to readers why Democrats ought to "redefine the center" with independents and Republicans instead of having their own agenda and fighting to make it a reality.
If even The Nation bows down in thrall of the over hyped "center," then all hope for true change is gone. In other words, capitulation is the order of the day, and Obama makes it more palatable than Hillary Clinton does.
"Capitulation is the order of the day."
After eight years of Clintonian triangulation, and another eight years of Bush lawlessness, the center isn't what is used to be. The center will accept an occupation of Iraq, as long as there is pretense that it will end. The center will not undo the Bush attacks on the Constitution. The center will tell black people that they are "90% of the way" towards equality. Actually, Obama already declared that "there is no black America" so the fight for equality will become irrelevant.
Black voters are overwhelmingly pro-Obama. Now supposedly anti-war and progressive organizations have also thrown in the towel. Race pride, however misguided in this case, explains Obama's appeal to black Americans. White progressives have no such excuse. Nevertheless they have chosen to suspend disbelief and jump on the winning bandwagon.
The stampede to Obama reveals the emptiness of the Democratic left. They are every bit as cynical as the man they support. They want a seat at the table. They don't really care what is decided at that table as long as they are included. Pro-war, anti-war, who cares? Just spell the name right on the White House invitation and let the triangulation begin.
yes we can?
Freedom Rider: Progressives Cave to Obama
by BAR editor and senior columnist Margaret Kimberley
"There is no movement left to speak up or fight back."
FRobamaSpeeching The progressive movement is on its death bed, in critical condition for many reasons. Activists are demoralized after George W. Bush cheated his way into office, committed crimes against humanity, and subverted the constitution without punishment or even serious risk of political damage. Eight years of evil doing have taken their toll on activists' willingness to take action.
The Democrats are not blameless. The prospect of a Hillary Clinton nomination was another slap in the face to the most loyal Democratic voters. The Yale educated lawyer claimed she didn't know the Authorization for Use of Military Force Against Iraq was just what it said. The sorry excuses went on forever and the disgust only grew. Her vaunted inevitability silenced Democrats, who prepared to hold their noses and support the lesser of two evils.
The prospect of more humiliation from yet another Clinton put restless Democrats in the mood to look for other options. Barrack Obama scored points because he expressed opposition to invading Iraq back in 2003 when the crime was first committed. It doesn't seem to matter that as a United States Senator his votes on Iraq are the same as Hillary Clinton's. It doesn't matter that he once opposed establishing a deadline for withdrawal. It doesn't matter that he parrots the words of Republicans when he speaks of "the excesses of the 60s and 70s." None of what he says matters, because speaking up would mean fighting back, and there is no movement left to do that.
"MoveOn never bothered to make demands of Obama."
The end of movement politics has infected nearly everyone, like a mysterious illness in a science fiction film. If a movement still existed, MoveOn would not have made an Obama endorsement via popularity contest. They never bothered to make demands of him, to ask questions before giving him their support. Their endorsement is worthless because it gives Obama cover and asks nothing in return.
MoveOn spreads the conventional wisdom that super delegates are more likely to be pro-Clinton and are willing to subvert the popular will on her behalf. They have even circulated a petition to prevent super delegates from choosing the nominee. What MoveOn doesn't say is that both Clinton and Obama have used their political action committees to make contributions to super delegate campaign funds. They also fail to mention that Obama leads in making these contributions.
His PAC has given $698,200 to super delegates. Hillary Clinton has made $205,500 in contributions to super delegate coffers. In other words, Obama is more adept at buying votes than Clinton. "Yes we can" indeed.
"Obama is more adept at buying super delegate votes than Clinton."
MoveOn is not alone. It is incomprehensible that The Nation magazine endorsed Obama after making the following statement. "This magazine has been critical of the senator from Illinois for his closeness to Wall Street; his unwillingness to lay out an ambitious progressive agenda on healthcare, housing and other domestic policy issues; and for post-partisan rhetoric that seems to ignore the manifest failure of conservatism over these past seven years."
If The Nation has so many qualms about Obama, why endorse him at all? The editors could have simply made a statement of non-support for Obama or Clinton. The sad plight of progressives is all too obvious. "While his rhetoric about ‘unity' can be troubling, it also embodies a savvy strategy to redefine the center of American politics and build a coalition by reaching out to independent and Republican voters disgruntled and disgusted with what the Bush era has wrought." The Nation should explain to readers why Democrats ought to "redefine the center" with independents and Republicans instead of having their own agenda and fighting to make it a reality.
If even The Nation bows down in thrall of the over hyped "center," then all hope for true change is gone. In other words, capitulation is the order of the day, and Obama makes it more palatable than Hillary Clinton does.
"Capitulation is the order of the day."
After eight years of Clintonian triangulation, and another eight years of Bush lawlessness, the center isn't what is used to be. The center will accept an occupation of Iraq, as long as there is pretense that it will end. The center will not undo the Bush attacks on the Constitution. The center will tell black people that they are "90% of the way" towards equality. Actually, Obama already declared that "there is no black America" so the fight for equality will become irrelevant.
Black voters are overwhelmingly pro-Obama. Now supposedly anti-war and progressive organizations have also thrown in the towel. Race pride, however misguided in this case, explains Obama's appeal to black Americans. White progressives have no such excuse. Nevertheless they have chosen to suspend disbelief and jump on the winning bandwagon.
The stampede to Obama reveals the emptiness of the Democratic left. They are every bit as cynical as the man they support. They want a seat at the table. They don't really care what is decided at that table as long as they are included. Pro-war, anti-war, who cares? Just spell the name right on the White House invitation and let the triangulation begin.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
how much does a hit on a black fetus cost?
h/t to feministing on this one.
i don't know, but i guess we can ask Autumn Kersey, Vice President of Development and Marketing at Planned Parenthood of Ohio.
She agreed to take funds from a donor earmarking his/her funds for the aborting of black fetuses. According to the article below, Kersey "chuckles nervously."
i feel nauseous right now.
Article here, along with transcript of phone call.
this is definitely an interesting spin to the "pro-choice" movement...
i don't know, but i guess we can ask Autumn Kersey, Vice President of Development and Marketing at Planned Parenthood of Ohio.
She agreed to take funds from a donor earmarking his/her funds for the aborting of black fetuses. According to the article below, Kersey "chuckles nervously."
i feel nauseous right now.
Article here, along with transcript of phone call.
this is definitely an interesting spin to the "pro-choice" movement...
Monday, February 25, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
OMG! and another one bites the dust...
yet another of my little whiteboy star crushes of the nineties has died of an apparent overdose!!!! :( what's wrong whiteboys? what happened? oh, brad, if only you had made it onto "dr. drew's celebrity rehab" in time!
i know i sound really shitty right now, and like i'm mocking this, but i'm not. i'm actually really serious. i'm actually really emotionally kind of shaken up. brad renfro is dead, and it makes me sad.
what is happening to our generation?
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
i don't know if you pray
i don't, generally. but if you do, please pray for my cousin william. he has leukemia and he was placed in the ICU today. he's 12. he's a great football player, very silly, and he is quite the big brother to his little sister. the cancer came out of nowhere and has come on very strong. things don't look good, and i don't think my grandmother (or i) will be able to deal very well with his leaving us. so i don't want it to happen.
some of you know i had the chance to be a blood marrow donor recently for an anonymous patient. i was advised to say no because i am missing a kidney. writing the marrow donation organization to say no was the hardest thing i've ever done. i feel horrible about not being willing to save someone else's life because of an unknown risk to my own. i feel so selfish. and now william needs someone's help and he doesn't have it.
anyway, again, please pray if you do. think positively if you don't. and maybe think about adding your name and a sample to the national blood marrow registry if you haven't already. you never know who you might be able to help.
starting the new year with a heavy heart and with tears in my eyes.
some of you know i had the chance to be a blood marrow donor recently for an anonymous patient. i was advised to say no because i am missing a kidney. writing the marrow donation organization to say no was the hardest thing i've ever done. i feel horrible about not being willing to save someone else's life because of an unknown risk to my own. i feel so selfish. and now william needs someone's help and he doesn't have it.
anyway, again, please pray if you do. think positively if you don't. and maybe think about adding your name and a sample to the national blood marrow registry if you haven't already. you never know who you might be able to help.
starting the new year with a heavy heart and with tears in my eyes.
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