an hour and a half with my mom,
and an hour face-to-face with terry,
and i know that keeping discussion going isn't the answer. i know that i have to leave him and let him come back if he wants to. i know that trying to hold on halfway isn't the solution. i know that i have things to work on. i know that if he wants me, he'll come back and ask for me. he'll offer himself in a new way. he'll want to be a different person. and it won't take mediation, it will be organic. and if it isn't, it isn't supposed to happen anyway. so i need to stop holding my breath.
period. the end. move on.
my next post should be about the boy i'm going out with tonight. so it will be.