the fear that comes

i'm a little scared. i'm about to help start something big, and it's scary. as the launch of the school i'm helping to start comes closer and closer, i'm starting to feel the high expectations closing in on me...and i'm a little worse for the wear. i'm beginning to splinter and break up, to lash out at people i'd rather keep close, to show my fears through my actions without adding the expression. this is when i need to check myself and pull my bullshit to a full stop. i'm going to focus today on trying to recenter and giving myself a way out, a way back to who I'd like to be.