so i came home to be alone. to figure it out. to avoid a fight, if possible. to remember that sometimes it's my problem. to think about whether it's worth it. to wonder how much more i can take. to reflect on whether or not i'm searching for these problems. to think about how angry i'll be if he's made (what i consider to be) another asinine, obnoxious, disrespectful decision. to think about how relieved i'll be if he hasn't.
new solution to an old problem? maybe. i hope so.